19 January 2017

Julai 2011

She loved him with her all. It’s safe for her to say that.
Never once did she think of giving up. But seriously why did it happen to be this way?

Finding out he didn’t love her hurts her a lot. She didn’t know if she wasn’t in his heart at all. But knowing that now, he’s with someone else totally put her down. She was like, devastated with her own thoughts. She tried to make herself believe that he’s still with her. She doesn’t want to believe the fact that he’s with someone else because she’s afraid of the pain. Pathetic.

She gave him everything, she loved him and she cared for him and she did the best she could possibly have done for him. He even said that she was the best thing ever happened to him. But, why is it so easy for him? Yeah, not all love stories ends with happy endings.

The thing they both had was definitely the best thing that has happened to her. It’s really sad and hard for her to face the fact that this has ended. As much as she wants to fix this whole thing and just become normal people who are absolutely in love, she can’t run away from reality ….from the fact that it’s over. He’s gone. And now, he’s with someone else.

If so, she guess he’s just not the one for her.

But why does it really have to happen this way? Its like love is not a beautiful thing anymore. It eats her up inside and throw the good part of her away and in the end she don’t even remember who she really is.

It’s scary when she has to live the next day thinking about the person she always love and to actually know that at the back of her mind, he’s happy with someone else while she’s still sobbing over him.

Knowing that her loved one don’t feel like what she felt toward him made her think that it’s a total waste to remember him at all. She should have moved on by this moment, but she can’t. He’s special in his own way. She never felt this way before. Yes, she had been in a relationship a couple times before, but things before were never as special as this. She loved him with all her heart and she don’t know if she’s going to meet another person that’s as special as him. She wishes she will. But she always prayed to God that He will never erase any memory of him in her head because she doesn’t want to forget the best thing ever happened in her life.

She does not ask for diamonds nor did she ask for gold. All she ever wanted was for him to love her. Sometimes when she think about all this, is it worth it? Is it really worth the tears? Worth the pain? Worth the waiting?

Her life has passed her by with nothing but a blur. She had been hurt to by her loved ones and she’s not really ready to see what’s in store for her. She doesn’t even want to know because she’s afraid that she won’t be able to bare the pain.
It’s enough. Let her deal with it before any other guy hurt her again. It’s pitiful that she can’t accept another guy as a new lover since she already fall in love with him.

The thing she doesn’t get is why she can’t let him go as easy as he did. He let her go just like that. Wouldn’t it be easy? Despite of all the things that happened, she just can’t. Maybe it’s just her. Deep in her heart, she don’t want to let go but do you think she have any other choices? She’s sick and tired of crying so hard until it starts to hurt. She’s afraid to think what
will happen next. Is that really fair?

People always say, sometimes you think the person u love the most will be the one that protects you from everything. But in true fact, people you love the most always end up hurting you the most.

He had proved that right to her, just like her family did, just like her friends did, just like everyone around her that she loved did.

And all she wanted to say to him is:

Thank you for your time & love. Thank you for giving me happiness. In time, I’ll
let you go. But if I can’t, I promise that you won’t get bothered by me. May
God bless you and her. I’ve been missing you everyday since u left.

As
the days goes by,

She
wishes he was here.

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03 January 2017

wanita & lelaki

Wanita tidak semestinya memerlukan lelaki, tetapi wanita dan lelaki saling memerlukan, cinta itu anugerah.Mengapa wanita memerlukan lelaki di dalam hidupnya? Untuk beberapa waktu dahulu, ia begitu memukul-mukul kepala.Ya, apa perlu seorang wanita yang bebas mempertaruhkan sebahagian besar hidupnya kepada tangan seorang lelaki?Bukankah lebih hebat jalan dihujung minggu bersama kawan rapat, berkenyit-kenyitan mata kepada lelaki kacak yang saling tidak putus dan tidak lokek senyum tanda salam perkenalan.

Cinta tidak datang dipaksa-paksa. Cinta tidak juga datang kala kita mahukannya. Jika kita mahukan ia menjadi air, ia datang seperti api.Tetapi, jika kita bersabar dan menerima ketentuan Tuhan, seorang lelaki yang baik akan didatangkan kepada kita juga. Lelaki yang baik itu tidak turun dari langit. Lelaki yang baik itu juga tidak semestinya datang dengan kepala berketayap, janggut selambak atau harta membuak-buak.Tetapi lelaki yang baik, jika Tuhan mahukan dia menemani kita sepanjang hayat, membimbing kelakuan kita, menjaga kemurnian kalbu bersama-sama, mendidik, membuka jalan agar kita dapat memperdalam selok belok agama yang barangkali selama ini hanya menjadi pakaian dan lencana, dan memberikan kita zuriat yang halal lagi dirahmatiNya.Dia akan datang apabila tiba masanya. Lambat atau cepat, maafkan saya, kerana Allah itu yang lebih mengetahui.

Kawan, kedatangan seorang lelaki dalam kehidupan seorang wanita seperti manusia kudung yang diberikan semula sebelah kakinya. Dia menyempurnakan kita.Namun, tidak kira semasyhuk mana sekalipun perkasihan dua jantina, selain perkara yang cantik-cantik dan molek-molek, kita, wanita, harus bersedia menerima kehodohan-kehodohan perhubungan.Kerana apabila kita mempersilakan seorang lelaki duduk di samping kita untuk sepanjang hayat, bererti kita harus langsung juga mempersilakan sekian masalahnya berbaring di bahu kita.Kerana itu tidak hairan jika kita mendengar ada di kalangan kita, gadis, yang merungut-rungut kerana tanggungjawabnya terhadap keperluan hidup lelaki tidak juga berkurangan walaupun belum lagi berkahwin.

Ya, lelaki memang mendatangkan bahagia.Tetapi lelaki juga mendatangkan sengsara. Namun jika kita bijak menatangnya, semuanya pasti baik-baik sahaja. Itulah adat dalam perhubungan. Yang buruk-buruk pasti ada.Barangkali daripada si dia, barangkali juga daripada kita, tetapi kita harus cermat mengimbangkannya agar jodoh berkekalan ke hari tua.Bagi yang sedang galak bercinta dengan lelaki permata jiwa tetapi menerima tentangan keluarga dua pihak, jika anda fikir anda tidak mungkin mampu hidup bahagia tanpa restu ibu bapa, maka ada baiknya anda menyerah kalah saja.Walaupun tidak saling memiliki, dan cinta tidak juga diwali dan dinikahi, anda dan dia tetap pengantin di dalam jiwa.Barangkali sudah sampai masanya anda mencari sahaja lelaki lain untuk dibawa pulang menemui ibu bapa.Dan semoga lelaki yang dipilih, melaksanakan tanggungjawab dan melunaskan hak suami isteri.

Wanita, kita dicipta dengan kemuliaan syahadah. Kerana benih seorang lelaki, kita ini tersenyawa, dikurnia tenaga sehingga kita mampu menyibak jalan keluar dari rahim ibu untuk melihat dunia. Kerana benih seorang lelaki, kita ini ditiupkan jiwa, menjadi manusia, dan mencari seorang lelaki untuk dicintai, sebagaimana ibu diilhamkan Tuhan untuk berkasih sayang dengan bapa.Dan kerana Tuhan yang Maha Kuasa dan Maha Pencipta, kita wanita, kita ini diciptakan daripada lengkungan rusuk kiri lelaki, tidak terlalu gagah sehingga mengenepi kudrat lelaki, tidak juga terlalu lemah sehingga jatuh menyembah kaki. Tetapi kerana ciptaan Tuhan itu indah, kita terbit daripada rusuk lelaki, bukan dekat kepala untuk dijunjungi, bukan dekat bahu untuk membebani, bukan dekat lengan untuk dijulangi, bukan dekat jari untuk disakiti, bukan dekat pinggul untuk dihenyaki, bukan dekat lutut untuk ditindihi, bukan dekat kaki untuk ditunggangi, tetapi dekat pelusuk hati untuk dimulia, disayangi dan dicintai.

Andai lelaki itu burung yang terbang, kita adalah angin lembut yang bersisir-sisiran sepanjang perjalanannya.Tetapi kerana fitrah kejadian Tuhan wanita itu kebergantungan hidupnya harus saja diserahkan kepada seorang lelaki yang boleh melindungi, maka kita pun tidak selamanya mahu menjadi angin semata-mata.Kita mahu menjadi bunga, menghias sayapnya. Kita mahu terus bersama-sama, terbang dari rendah perkebunan bunga sehingga ke sayup langit terbuka, sehingga jalannya yang paling hujung, sehingga kita tua, rapuh dan mati.Tetapi kita bahagia dalam dakapannya, semoga kita semua diketemukan dengan jodoh yang baik. InsyaAllah...

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